Unknown Emotions.

I've been fighting my whole life.

Fighting the unknown

I gave you light when you needed me

But you burnt my candles,

the rays of my sunshine were starting to fade

Now I've been looking for that lost streak of life that was taken away from me

I'm a giver of hope to everyone

They call me an angel

Yet I felt left out

Betrayal crushed me

I lost friends

And I'm a walking disaster waiting to happen

All those things I didn't say

I kept it inside and buried deep

Love never really helps me

I'm a lover of everything black and white

I was shadowed in my darkness that used to be colorful

I kept calling your name

I was screaming out

I was the one who stood up

When doubts filled you in

And your world became bleak

Being brave was my choice

But when everything begin to tremble

It's falling apart

But there's really a part of me that believes

I am a girl of faith

I was raised with class

I grew up with joy

And when my battles begin to resurface

It creeped me out,

I run away

From first love that chased me.

I chose to ignore that love that was blossoming

Deep in my heart

I know I am loved

That from what romance can offer

But from the little girl that still in me

I still got a lot of hope

Now I'm standing up

I'm starting to build my wall that you manage to break

I let you in but you still left me out

I was alone in the middle of nowhere

The fight I thought was ours

I am now on my own battle.

Now, I'm writing my own way of life

I still got a lot of life in me

I'm alright.

I'm fine.

I can now walk the path I thought you followed.

I'm in too deep

I was drowned from memories

I miss home

And I get to live a life to the fullest

They said I was your only one

I kept writing our book

So they knew how we knew each other

You were my bestfriend

But you turned your back on me

My intentions was marvelous

Then you misread the lines behind my words.

I was busy for my future

But you were busy screwing other girls

Then those girls haunt me.

How can single mistakes lead us to destruction?

I don't care what they think

I can fight my own battles now without you pulling me closer

I am the brightest color of your rainbow

It's been three years, I miss you

We ignore each other

Act like we don't care

But I was still holding on to life.

What would happen if we happened?

I'm scared of taking risks.

We should stop believing in fairytale.

No one should live waiting for a life that isn't coming yet

Forever is the here after,

Forever exist in our lifetime.

You were my king, I was your queen

We conquered each other's territory

But our war ended up with lots of casualty

No one can stop me now

I was a fool once

Haters gonna hate me for being who I am

I am the writer of my love story

We ended, but perhaps somebody's coming for me

For Allah, loves me. He was dictating my life,

 And I need a fresh start from somewhere without you

My new leaf was on

And I've learned that;

Forever isn't really real

It was ideal

We are ideal

Like two love birds flying away from each other

I let you go

But you tied me up

I have a lot of life in me

I'm saved from you

Someone has distract me from the monsters in my sleep

Saved by the peace in my heart

Clarity in my mind

I move on.